body me AND grad apps.

So as i continue this applying to grad school, i become more aware of myself and all the things i wish to improve.  The anxiety of this process has caused me to lose 5 lbs Monday through Friday and gain 10 lbs on the weekends, which results in an overall weight gain.  My body the reality of me and my writing. My thought are everywhere right now, its hard to be clear and make sense.  This past Thursday i spent half a day working on one paragraph for my statement of purpose, which may i remind you still requires editing.  I have no idea where i will end up next fall but this process is slowing depleting my self esteem, which results in the perpetual misuse of my body, over eating.  let me end on a bright note my commitment fro next week is to live in the moment.  Virgen mia give me strength.