Grad School Apps

So applying to grad school.   yup time does fly and i am its victim caught in the midst of the wind.  I feel very overwhelmed and intellectually stifled by what i am embarking on.  I spend hours riving one sentence in my writing sample, due to my thoughts of incompetence.  I want to spend the rest of my life writing yet I have this double fear.  I am scared of writing due to the witnesses and I am more scared of not writing due to the lost ideas.  I am caught between two roads and yet I so desperately want to be on one.  I want to push forth with the next step but need to add more words to this page.  Still working on the many components of the infamous Ph.D. Application you know the writing sample, statement of purpose, CV, letters of recommendation and the money of course.  I need sanity but I also need acceptance.  Oh Virgen mia keep my calm.